''5mos and i hope to cease counting... but His will shall be''

It's been a trashy 5mos since I've been stocked in the house after i quit  immediately from work when my grandma needed someone to look over her health while the rest of the people in the house is away for work. Well, i felt like it's really my responsibility to forsake work just for her needs.. it's a priority for me above most things in life.


But early way back the time i started to spend my unemployed life.. i never thought of getting this far living jobless since i had been waiting for a hiring in one of my most liked hospitals in the city. I just didn't imagined in the first place that it would freeze and would have left me like waiting for a great uncertainty.


In general, staying more frequently in the house was not a total boredom and jerking stuff for me. Infact i enjoyed it especially the first early days ago since I've really missed hanging  out and spending time with my grandma. I used to be very, overly and stress fully busy with my previous work as an institutional nurse that i tend to despise the time for my grandma and often spent overtime in the work. Then i found that time .. to be the best time in catching up for what i had missed before. So, i made everyday in the house worth remembering, enjoying and useful, helpful and significant.


The best thing i even realized being unemployed and just staying in the house was my opportunity to gain the pounds i had lost when i was still in work. Successfully i made it to a roughly enough gain of 15lbs. Thank God. It's like going back to a healthy individual i never been in my working time. But now and hopefully when i get to be in my future job.. I'll start well and maintain the wellness in me.


Of course with the length of time.. it's not avoidable to feel the urge to go out and make what you want in your life without thinking of things that might have held you back. But because of the great  love, gratitude, respect and inspiration i have for my grandma who had been standing as my mother ever since, i learned to hold back everything i desire for myself including the job,  love life and more adventures i hope to meet as of the moment... just for the sake of giving much time to her. She's too old to be forsaken and ignored.  while I'm still young to be fast and hurrying in pushing forward for the things I'd like to have.


Compromising my time for her didn't made me sobbing, despairing, and mad about life. I find enjoyment in everything i do.. even from the most difficult and hard things i have to go through with her, i view it differently with vigor and  hope that God is always there to give me strength.


In spite of the many cracking up, stupefying, odd, dumped stuffs I'm going through along the way... It's God's name i always call. Truly,,, i asked him to strengthen my heart and give me another tone of patience and endurance. It's all what it takes to surpass all the painful and sacrificing things in life as we all know that we can't just pass by them otherwise we will not grow in life.


DIFFICULTY+ PRAYERS+ ACCEPTANCE+ CONFRONTATION+ PATIENCE+ ENDURANCE= GROWN UP SUCCESSFUL INDIVIDUAL=  Me in the near future! To God be the Glory!