Hi there!

Discovering this blogspot myself is just an ooze of excitement and relief. At last after the long years of being away from my best friend and of keeping everything just inside of me, now i could share it to everyone. So healthy in a sense that it outlets and surfaces my emotions and never letting them be junked, spoiled and explode inside.

My blogs theme is about living life. Its been clear that we have to realize that life is not always fair and easy. In any angles and corners come boulders of rocks, stones and splashing huge waves, trying to attest our strength and will power. Thus we must be ready of it. Surrendering and escaping are not the keys to get off those limping stuffs instead, face and handle them with courage and confidence so as to surpass them.

Having experienced such little disgusts of life, i feel a bit vocal and expressive enough to tell everyone how it feels to break one's heart and how to cope up and learn to keep the pieces back and move on with life... everything posted through my blogs. With matters of the family, friends, love life, career, relationships and the negativity of life that's trying to devour us at our most vulnerable moments.

I hope everyone's reading it will get one or two lessons and find a bit enjoyment and inspiration.


With Love,
Marilyn

Picking up the pieces Fighting for it and Moving on!

life, love, money, career, friends, inspirations, happiness

VS


brokenness, disappointments, fears, doubts, resentments, pasts, enemies, sadness

''Creative Mind and Expressive Heart''

''Creative Mind and Expressive Heart''
reading, writing, surfing the web and blogging while a hot cup of coffee at the side is a great sense!

He just have the Best Innate Humor and Sweet eyes every woman is about to get crazy of!

Wednesday, July 27, 2011

despair not and be inlove!

What If, no matter what your love life is like now - even if there's no man at all, or the man you have is pulling away and you feel alone, scared and angry - you could change everything?
You can! And all it will take is a few simple shifts in your words and body language to connect to a man where it counts... through his heart.




just be hopeful and patient and think positive about life and love.

Friday, July 22, 2011

''Realities that fond and stink''

Life is short, live it. Love is rare, grab it. Anger is bad, dump it. Fear is awful, face it. Memories are sweet, cherish it.

She comes off as strong, but maybe she fell asleep crying. She acts like nothing is wrong, but maybe she's just really good at lying.

As we grow up, we realize it becomes less important to have a ton of friends, and more important to have real ones.

Smart man + smart woman = romance. Smart man + dumb woman = affair. Dumb man + smart woman = marriage. Dumb man + dumb woman = pregnancy.

Don't worry if you're single. God is looking at you right now, saying, "I'm saving this one for someone special."

I cheated on my fears, broke up with my doubts, got engaged to my faith and now I'm marrying my dreams.

It's funny how one little conversation or action can change things forever...Just because I'm nice doesn't mean 

I'm weak. Don't try to take advantage of me, don't take me for granted.

If you've been cheated on, lied to, used, or anything else by the wrong guy; keep smiling, your happiness is on it's way.

The harder you try to forget something, the more you think about it subconsciously.


 from: @TheNotebook

Tuesday, July 19, 2011

''keep on dreaming as long as there are still nights of tight sleeps''

Dreaming is something i can't get over with..yeah..surely I'm a dreamer and i don't wanna stop being one.
It brings me to to the peak i just wanted to reach no matter how far and difficult to get through.
It somehow also becomes a way to escape a dreadful reality with the thought of getting back from it.
Dreaming leaves you back to the place where you first saw your dreamed man. And a lot of wonderful things could happen in that moment of dreaming to the point of  never wanting to be awaken at all.
I want to dream to become someone i always liked to be
I love to dream to see him spending time with me
I enjoy dreaming when its with my lovely friends'  company
I used to be dreaming to see a wonderful place
that could never be seen anywhere here on earth.

Dreaming is a priceless way to be rich and to be someone and somebody.

Sunday, July 17, 2011

have you ever realized of not thinking about eating your words someday...?

well, just as i feel now, i did..but not so sure if its really it being eaten or just the circumstance is just a fate or destined to happen...i don't know much if this is karma...but it isn't.. surely.

so, this was just this feeling of excruciating pain, sometimes a creeping numbness or hollow black pit eating you out..were some of the things that made me so much pressured or disappointed or frustrated about being solo in life.

I never expect this to be cropping up now, the crisis in isolation versus intimacy roles. Yeah, this holds true to me very well that i could just relate it to our previous class in growth and development.

I realize it well, when i had meet up all the tasks of this role at the exact time i should have been experiencing it then i ought to not suffering the frustrations i am into now. Well, regret is just now, but not for long since every lapses could always be patched up though no matter how later in life...as long as you could never missed it.


I somehow find it a bit karma since  i almost had all the opportunity when i was younger but i just ignored them and fall into the pit of procrastination thinking that there's more  to come in time ahead.. though its indeed true. I just hope i never  waisted before what i am supposed to have now. But surely i think this is not just karma...for even once i never did something bad to all those trying to pursue me.. i just made a declining decision..something that's what my heart and mind uttered and that somehow hurt them but just a bit.

Then i had said it could have been fate or a destiny.. well its only God knows..I'm kinda assuming just to avoid the guilt feelings instead. Well going through back on my younger days still i hadn't find someone that suites best my personality or someone I'm comfortable into.So, i guess its was not yet the right time.. and i guess its just coming so soon.

Yeah.. so freaking  confusing.. and now I'm falling down into a mixture of self crisis and  i just could not get out until i sort out things into the right places. And the huge question how could i?

But whatever it is..that made me up confuse, disappointed, frustrated and pressured today..i know it would have an end.

Maybe just got to face them with less fear... confronting what's bugging off and accepting what's hard and changing what's needed to get better.

Monday, July 11, 2011

How to achieve a good relationship?


6 Keys to a good relationship: friendship, freedom, honesty, trust, understanding, and communication.

Friendship- lovers shouldn't be bonded only through intimacy but also of friendship. Realizing that its also best to enjoy company as friends where both of you could share each others joys and sorrows, helping through thick and thin, and never letting go when the other is shortly behind..theirs always this lending hand ready to take a grip of a falling hand. When you treat each other as friends you will be more trusting with disclosing up secrets thus trust and faith to each other is strengthened. 
Freedom- Love is never a prison of lovers rather a feeling that each other is set free to choose their true love. Giving one's relationship with enough freedom would deepen much more than anything else your respect for one's interests.

Honesty- As the famous quotation says, ''Honesty is the best policy'', indeed true as applied to all kinds of relationships. When both of the couples is honest to each other there's no fear and uncertainties of any break ups and quarrels.

Trust- A woman once asked which does come first? love or trust? Its right to say that its trust that harvests love. Without it, you can never find someone worthy of any love at all. Aside from that fact, trust is also the first task we human have to achieve in our first stage of life. It couldn't be skipped, because if so, great conflicts would arise later in life that definitely affects the handling of certain relationships.

Understanding- In a relationship there's always someone whose good enough to understand. Understanding is not being martyr and tolerating any mischievous acts of the other but its about giving the benefit of the doubt and hearing the others side to be establish fairness and harmony. If both of the couples doesn't like to understand, no relationship is good enough for them to stay longer for it will cause them to tear their interest and mutual perception of things.

Communication- Maybe among all the element, i think communication should be the first to exist in order for the other factors to follow. Its not only enough to communicate, but taking into consideration its important elements should count most for a more successful relationship. So, its not only speaking and hearing but there's this comprehension, good channeling, delivering and just perception and obtaining of message from the one who send it. hen barriers are playing tricks in the middle, its best to counteract it with proper, good and sweet ways of communication.

''Its all I ask of you''

It wasn't the first time  i heard of the phantom opera music ''Its all i ask of you'' but when i just heard it a moment ago, was then i had a deep understanding and  feeling of its lyrical meaning. Remembering back the first time i heard it ,I just had no idea of how it means and what it brings for people to be in loved of it.


Now, its melody, the voices and the meaning it  wanders me to somewhere else, another world that makes me feel as if I'm part of it. Every word touches me deep inside and let me realize how lovely it is to be hoped by someone to share each others warmth of love.

RAOUL
No more talk
of darkness,
Forget these
wide-eyed fears.
I'm here,
nothing can harm you -
my words will
warm and calm you.

Let me be
your freedom,
let daylight
dry -your tears.
I'm here,
with you, beside you,
to guard you
and to guide you . . .

CHRISTINE
Say you love me
every
waking moment,
turn my head
with talk of summertime . . .

Say you need me
with you,
now and always . . .
promise me that all
you say is true -
that's all I ask
of you . . .

RAOUL
Let me be
your shelter,
let me
be your light.
You're safe:
No-one will find you
your fears are
far behind you . . .

CHRISTINE
All I want
is freedom,
a world with
no more night . . .
and you
always beside me
to hold me
and to hide me . . .

RAOUL
Then say you'll share with
me one
love, one lifetime . . .
Iet me lead you
from your solitude . . .

Say you need me
with you
here, beside you . . .
anywhere you go,
let me go too -
Christine,
that's all I ask
of you . . .

CHRISTINE
Say you'll share with
me one
love, one lifetime . . .
say the word
and I will follow you . . .

BOTH
Share each day with
me, each
night, each morning . . .

CHRISTINE
Say you love me . . .

RAOUL
You know I do . . . 

BOTH
Love me -
that's all I ask
of you . . .

(They kiss)

Anywhere you go
let me go too . . .
Love me -
that's all I ask
of you . .
I think this is just great for a wedding song... mine someday..i just love it!

What's my mood's status?

clearly, my deep sadness is gradually filled up with small  happy moment with friends and loved ones but still if i have to rate it to 10... still flunk in the rate of 5 if 70% is the passing.

The happiness i have now, is probably my coping to stay okay despite of the lacking things in life.

(sigh) when can i possibly feel great.. not just an exaggerating expression but real feeling deep inside..?

It's not that I'm not contented with what i have and with the little things around, but there's just this missing part in my heart that has kept me emotionally whisked  up.

But since i don't want to feel exactly how it is inside, i used to find ways, means and things to be motivated and to feel happy even a little.

 through  often SMILING  :)
THROUGH TALKING TO A FRIEND
HANGING OUT WITH PEERS
FINDING ENJOYMENT IN COOKING
THINK OF GOOD MEMORIES
PLAN YOUR LIFE AHEAD WITH BEAUTIFUL THINGS
SING AND DANCE YOUR EMOTIONS
LEARN TO WRITE YOUR THOUGHTS just like this
DON'T FORGET TO SPEAK OUT TO GOD HOW YOU FEEL

Sunday, July 10, 2011

''simple things that make my heart laughs''

My college barkadas are the most simple, pretty,  funny, smart, down to earth and responsible- wise people I've ever known. I seldom go out with them due to busy working schedules and at time conflicting with other appointments yet if ever we get the chance of hanging out then our day becomes the most fulfilling one we would ever want to be repeated at the soonest.

These pretty galz are Trishee, Elaine, Me, Flory, Batz, Steph, Jel and the one and only hunk Brian.

Since our last bonding moments a year ago, this another meet out had just happened this month of July. Though are group was not complete, still the great enjoyment and fun overly excited us. First stop was in Ayala mall, where we had an appetizing dinner at the Gilligan's Resto. We had much chitchatting moments and best laughing modes. Its just good to the heart.





The next stop... 22nd street comedy bar at mango. I thought the laughing moments would not suffice are roughly expensive entrance fee.. but not until i saw all the performers, watched them act, heard them sing and throw jokes on us..wow! it was really amazingly crazy- funny overly greenly discussions and skits. But i just love the humor.. its soothing to my one lonely heart.

Wednesday, July 6, 2011

''My Favorite Quotes for the Heart''


I'm not single & I'm not taken. I’m simply on reserve for the one who deserves my heart because they say good things take time.


Wanted by many, taken by none, talking to some, just waiting for one. ♥


Never pass a chance to say "I love you," to the people you care about because we aren't promised tomorrow.




S.I.N.G.L.E. = (S)tress (I)s (N)ow (G)one (L)ife's (E)asier


Beauty grabs attention. Personality grabs the heart.


"If a guy can't handle a girl in sweatpants, he sure as hell doesn't deserve her in a wedding dress."


Waiting for someone you love is never easy. It may even be irrelevant, especially if the one you love isn't aware that you're waiting.
Any guy can love 1,000 girls but it takes a real man to love 1 woman 1,000 ways.




to the world, you might be one person....but to one person you might be the world.....


"When love feels like magic, you call it destiny. When destiny has a sense of humor, you call it serendipity."


Don't go for looks; they can deceive. Go for someone who makes you smile because it takes only a smile to make a dark day seem bright.

The quickest way to get someone's attention is to no longer want it.



You can never understand someones PAIN until you're the one who feels it.




Tuesday, July 5, 2011

''friends and memories for keeps''

College years were among the most challenging, fulfilling and a bit crazy- funny times of my life.The people around are just so jolly, supportive and kind enough to be not forsaken. They added colors, fun stuffs and sugar and spice to my once bland outlook in life.

after our revaleda, preboard exams-  still funny, enjoying geeks though result ratings were flunking so bad.
And this was just a zest of fun under the sun! Everyone's shyness were set aside..showing off the best we just have..whoa! sadly it was all that we could bare. But nevertheless, the event was great experience and joy!

 
peace ya all!!! my close friends Janine and Charisse.  Still trying the absorb the goodness of nature and life.
My ever good friends. Never mind not having what the center had been wearing..hahaha! I'm no longer into collecting such..its all out in my piece. Having graduated is all the best I had to be proud of..whew..! after all the swish of hassles and bustles along the way, I've made it!!! Success!

''friends, either old or new ones are precious as gem stones''

These are my childhood friends. Upon reminiscing, I could vividly recall spending joys, craziness, bratty and outgoing experiences with them way back our elementary years. The uniform sandals, wearing new fashion dresses, and sharing crushes and puppy love were just among the remarkable stuffs we make fun of the yesterdays. Its quite overwhelming to  meet them unexpectedly in a large crowd here in the city. Over and over again, i miss their lovely presence and worth.

This is my close friend Trisha. Her name resounds as cute as her expressions and looks. She's smart, serious,good adviser nice and a trustworthy friend of mine. In the very first place i never thought that we would become close and bonded with some likes and loves in life. Both of us wanted to be successful in all our endeavors  someday.. well who would haven't wanted it? Its everyone's aim,,but harsh to say, time would be as tricky as a magician and would might play on us. So, It's all in our playing skills to succeed in any way. Trisha is one of the best people I've ever known in time.. and with all the goodness and hard times we've shared, i owe her a tone of gratitude..and it will always mark deep in my heart and my mind. How i wish our friendship would last for a lifetime!


This is my pretty- beautiful friend Mariejel. Before we got posing here like easy lucky chicks, a horrid event went pass over us on our way for a dinner. We've been soaked wet under the rain and i get splashed with muddy water by a passing reckless driving car. Just as we rode on a Jeep, a slight nerve freaking accident happened making  us terribly crazy. What if it gone so serious..? both of us might land on the ER with oozing red appearing on our head..whoa!..so horrid indeed but thank God it weren't that intense. Yet, after passing all the odds along the way, still we made it to eat so heavily and stay fresh enough like as we've not gotten from crack ups  and bad lucks.


''The Real behind the Trappings''


In reality, i had never been as happy as a child is given a birthday party, with clowns, balloons and give a ways.


Exactly,,, still waiting for it to the point of searching that happiness i find withdrawn away from me.


With the kind of life i have, though its not as harsh as the unfortunate people living homeless along the street, but its as worst as parent less and without much freedom at all.


I find a lot of questions at the back of my mind, but the right persons are neither around to utter all the answers.


I feel a lot of disappointments, heartaches of being incomplete as a family.


I suffer a lot of inferiority and  self- pity when i could see others spending time with their family.


I sacrifice setting back some of my love, wants and likes in this life... i just couldn't do things as i want to... we're not in our own comfort zones so we rather sway on what the powerful would say.


I haven't gone yet  to far places for fun explorations  and do diving, snorkeling, mountain climbing, night clubbing, bar hopping and any wild and fun things for sake of curiosity and fulfillment.


I haven't come with a bonding moment with my mom and dad... its so sad.


All these are just how i find life could oftentimes be  unfair. But.....


But because of my motivation,,, I manage to retain the power of staying on tract and never letting stray.


Though I have countless missed precious opportunities in line, still i find that there's more countless reasons to stay alive, kicking and hoping.


That someday all these nice, fun and just worth experiencing happenings in my life would be filled up.




For now, no matter either how small things come or even  not come though we expect it to be, i have to appreciate them and make the best out of it.


For any thing that has been waited for long to arrive, its good to expect the best yet to come.


This great sense of motivation i have makes me strong, fighting and willing to sacrifice.


Though it doesn't make me very happy , it gives me the hope that beyond all the pains, difficulties and challenges comes a shinning sun with a smiley face ready to view the world with good values and character inspired by the Holy Spirit.






Hoping so....


Marz

Sunday, July 3, 2011

''Sweet- Weird Sunday Mass Ever Attended''


It was today when i realized that among all the  Sunday masses I've ever attended, its just now when i find it sweet, meaningful and worth seeing scene.
Just as when i got inside the church, i almost changed my mind in catching up other masses to nearby church since the moment was filled with slow, solemnity of marriage and perhaps i might be hurrying up later when i would have to witness it and join the mass. With all the ceremonies, stuffs like walking down the aisle..i might get late. But there's this weird senses that got me pulling from getting out and instead whispering my mind that the next mass wouldn't might have another wedding ceremony. So, then i find the best place where i usually seated every time i attend the mass- 5th row from the altar...well, just never thought second wedding is waiting for the first to get over. oh oh..!
  While getting serious with praying and calling God's attention, i never realized wedding guest where already seating beside , next, before me. Not until i finished my chat with Him, then i turned my head around and saw the well vested, dressed people around me. Just to feel no much awkwardness and shame, so i remained still to where i was seated  until the mass begun.
Obviously, i was also captured by the videos and camera shoots the photographers were taking. Oh! so awful..that's how i feel. But its worth it.
  After a while, i thought that  in my whole life, I've never been into family, relatives or friends' wedding. So, this could have been a best time for me to witness it myself. What a good reason just have found. God really makes a way.
  As the walking down the aisle happened, i was daydreaming that its me whose walking. Its not already an early thing for me to think of my future wedding because things happened so fast and time flies so rapidly that no one might know of its coming not until its way in front of us. I'm no longer getting any younger and its better to make plans and foresee things ahead of time. After all, the better things are planned, the more it becomes beautiful and unique just as i wanted to have my wedding day.
  The more i get interested with wedding bells and tying up when the priest had its ridiculous,  meaningful and sweet homily.