''Beating all the Odds in Life''

Like how I was supposed to feel everyday is counteracted by the sense of optimism in me. Sadness and full of frustrations are the common undesirable things often buzzing and whirring on my mind...but because i know its a waste of time to feel all these..coping mechanisms are always on my rescue.

Frankly saying,  some of my college friends and duty mates knew me best when it comes to reading up ones personality. Yeah, possibly I'm just so stubbornly predictable. Don't know if this makes a great sense of being positive or the other way around. My critics for good call me the queen of rationalization since i do a lot of this way back 2 yrs ago and even up to  until now. Because often i get late in every meetings whether in duty thing or just for fun..so,  they even  tagged me the ''cause of delay''  and just to counteract all their words against  me, i was always making sure I'm fully equipped of my rescue reasons to get me off drowning their way. And thank God though only a few reasons are justifiable and rationale to hear, still i end up relieved from the stress and anxiety i could have felt if it weren't for the ready made reasons I've got on my pocket.

The other thing is my reaction formation way in dealing stress and bad emotions deep inside. Honestly, my life is not as happy as a fairytale or maybe as complete as yours . With the way how our family began is no longer a good experience for me most especially how it had been during the difficult times. There were many hardships and struggles, crisis and emptiness that almost made me in distress and confused. Living without a mother and father is not what i expected of though a grandmother had filled up all that parents should have been doing for their daughter to live with a good life instead. Perhaps i was expecting  a lot... or maybe they just fell short much with their responsibilities and obligations..Well the latter is practicable and definitely true for me. Though, whatever it is that led into the many head and heart  aching stuffs I've been going through one thing's for sure,,, I'm trying to be positive and cope up with it just to stay okay.

So, its when i actually used the reaction formation way of coping that in order for me not to be absorbed and left drowned by the harshness and madness of life's problems and difficulties... i tend to smile and find ways to be happy instead. When  i could hear somebody crying and expressing ones heart aches,,,words of encouragement, inspiration and cheering up comes out of me and share it to that somebody just to let her realize she's not alone with it and that hope is way ahead waiting for us if we fight and never surrender in the battle against bad experiences in the passed as well as in the present times. Its part of the mechanism that i feel bad at those that easily breakdown and give up to their problems. Its as though theirs are the biggest and most odd things in the world.

There goes how I definitely handle my emotions and remain strong against the odds in life. Thinking that as i continue to live out life more and learn things accordingly, i will gradually discover more coping mechanisms in me  to face the stress and anxiety- producing experiences in life.

Good luck and God bless you guys! Hope everything's gonna be Alright. Beat the waves that's trying to hit you alive!