despair not and be inlove!

What If, no matter what your love life is like now - even if there's no man at all, or the man you have is pulling away and you feel alone, scared and angry - you could change everything?

You can! And all it will take is a few simple shifts in your words and body language to connect to a man where it counts... through his heart.

just be hopeful and patient and think positive about life and love.

''Realities that fond and stink''

Life is short, live it. Love is rare, grab it. Anger is bad, dump it. Fear is awful, face it. Memories are sweet, cherish it.

She comes off as strong, but maybe she fell asleep crying. She acts like nothing is wrong, but maybe she's just really good at lying.

As we grow up, we realize it becomes less important to have a ton of friends, and more important to have real ones.

Smart man + smart woman = romance. Smart man + dumb woman = affair. Dumb man + smart woman = marriage. Dumb man + dumb woman = pregnancy.

Don't worry if you're single. God is looking at you right now, saying, "I'm saving this one for someone special."

I cheated on my fears, broke up with my doubts, got engaged to my faith and now I'm marrying my dreams.

It's funny how one little conversation or action can change things forever...Just because I'm nice doesn't mean 

I'm weak. Don't try to take advantage of me, don't take me for granted.

If you've been cheated on, lied to, used, or anything else by the wrong guy; keep smiling, your happiness is on it's way.

The harder you try to forget something, the more you think about it subconsciously.


 from: @TheNotebook

''keep on dreaming as long as there are still nights of tight sleeps''

Dreaming is something i can't get over with..yeah..surely I'm a dreamer and i don't wanna stop being one.
It brings me to to the peak i just wanted to reach no matter how far and difficult to get through.
It somehow also becomes a way to escape a dreadful reality with the thought of getting back from it.
Dreaming leaves you back to the place where you first saw your dreamed man. And a lot of wonderful things could happen in that moment of dreaming to the point of  never wanting to be awaken at all.
I want to dream to become someone i always liked to be
I love to dream to see him spending time with me
I enjoy dreaming when its with my lovely friends'  company
I used to be dreaming to see a wonderful place
that could never be seen anywhere here on earth.

Dreaming is a priceless way to be rich and to be someone and somebody.

have you ever realized of not thinking about eating your words someday...?

well, just as i feel now, i did..but not so sure if its really it being eaten or just the circumstance is just a fate or destined to happen...i don't know much if this is karma...but it isn't.. surely.

so, this was just this feeling of excruciating pain, sometimes a creeping numbness or hollow black pit eating you out..were some of the things that made me so much pressured or disappointed or frustrated about being solo in life.

I never expect this to be cropping up now, the crisis in isolation versus intimacy roles. Yeah, this holds true to me very well that i could just relate it to our previous class in growth and development.

I realize it well, when i had meet up all the tasks of this role at the exact time i should have been experiencing it then i ought to not suffering the frustrations i am into now. Well, regret is just now, but not for long since every lapses could always be patched up though no matter how later in life...as long as you could never missed it.


I somehow find it a bit karma since  i almost had all the opportunity when i was younger but i just ignored them and fall into the pit of procrastination thinking that there's more  to come in time ahead.. though its indeed true. I just hope i never  waisted before what i am supposed to have now. But surely i think this is not just karma...for even once i never did something bad to all those trying to pursue me.. i just made a declining decision..something that's what my heart and mind uttered and that somehow hurt them but just a bit.

Then i had said it could have been fate or a destiny.. well its only God knows..I'm kinda assuming just to avoid the guilt feelings instead. Well going through back on my younger days still i hadn't find someone that suites best my personality or someone I'm comfortable into.So, i guess its was not yet the right time.. and i guess its just coming so soon.

Yeah.. so freaking  confusing.. and now I'm falling down into a mixture of self crisis and  i just could not get out until i sort out things into the right places. And the huge question how could i?

But whatever it is..that made me up confuse, disappointed, frustrated and pressured today..i know it would have an end.

Maybe just got to face them with less fear... confronting what's bugging off and accepting what's hard and changing what's needed to get better.

How to achieve a good relationship?

6 Keys to a good relationship: friendship, freedom, honesty, trust, understanding, and communication.

Friendship- lovers shouldn't be bonded only through intimacy but also of friendship. Realizing that its also best to enjoy company as friends where both of you could share each others joys and sorrows, helping through thick and thin, and never letting go when the other is shortly behind..theirs always this lending hand ready to take a grip of a falling hand. When you treat each other as friends you will be more trusting with disclosing up secrets thus trust and faith to each other is strengthened. 

Freedom- Love is never a prison of lovers rather a feeling that each other is set free to choose their true love. Giving one's relationship with enough freedom would deepen much more than anything else your respect for one's interests.

Honesty- As the famous quotation says, ''Honesty is the best policy'', indeed true as applied to all kinds of relationships. When both of the couples is honest to each other there's no fear and uncertainties of any break ups and quarrels.

Trust- A woman once asked which does come first? love or trust? Its right to say that its trust that harvests love. Without it, you can never find someone worthy of any love at all. Aside from that fact, trust is also the first task we human have to achieve in our first stage of life. It couldn't be skipped, because if so, great conflicts would arise later in life that definitely affects the handling of certain relationships.

Understanding- In a relationship there's always someone whose good enough to understand. Understanding is not being martyr and tolerating any mischievous acts of the other but its about giving the benefit of the doubt and hearing the others side to be establish fairness and harmony. If both of the couples doesn't like to understand, no relationship is good enough for them to stay longer for it will cause them to tear their interest and mutual perception of things.

Communication- Maybe among all the element, i think communication should be the first to exist in order for the other factors to follow. Its not only enough to communicate, but taking into consideration its important elements should count most for a more successful relationship. So, its not only speaking and hearing but there's this comprehension, good channeling, delivering and just perception and obtaining of message from the one who send it. hen barriers are playing tricks in the middle, its best to counteract it with proper, good and sweet ways of communication.

''Its all I ask of you''

It wasn't the first time  i heard of the phantom opera music ''Its all i ask of you'' but when i just heard it a moment ago, was then i had a deep understanding and  feeling of its lyrical meaning. Remembering back the first time i heard it ,I just had no idea of how it means and what it brings for people to be in loved of it.


Now, its melody, the voices and the meaning it  wanders me to somewhere else, another world that makes me feel as if I'm part of it. Every word touches me deep inside and let me realize how lovely it is to be hoped by someone to share each others warmth of love.

RAOUL
No more talk
of darkness,
Forget these
wide-eyed fears.
I'm here,
nothing can harm you -
my words will
warm and calm you.

Let me be
your freedom,
let daylight
dry -your tears.
I'm here,
with you, beside you,
to guard you
and to guide you . . .

CHRISTINE
Say you love me
every
waking moment,
turn my head
with talk of summertime . . .

Say you need me
with you,
now and always . . .
promise me that all
you say is true -
that's all I ask
of you . . .

RAOUL
Let me be
your shelter,
let me
be your light.
You're safe:
No-one will find you
your fears are
far behind you . . .

CHRISTINE
All I want
is freedom,
a world with
no more night . . .
and you
always beside me
to hold me
and to hide me . . .

RAOUL
Then say you'll share with
me one
love, one lifetime . . .
Iet me lead you
from your solitude . . .

Say you need me
with you
here, beside you . . .
anywhere you go,
let me go too -
Christine,
that's all I ask
of you . . .

CHRISTINE
Say you'll share with
me one
love, one lifetime . . .
say the word
and I will follow you . . .

BOTH
Share each day with
me, each
night, each morning . . .

CHRISTINE
Say you love me . . .

RAOUL
You know I do . . . 

BOTH
Love me -
that's all I ask
of you . . .

(They kiss)

Anywhere you go
let me go too . . .
Love me -
that's all I ask
of you . .

I think this is just great for a wedding song... mine someday..i just love it!

What's my mood's status?

clearly, my deep sadness is gradually filled up with small  happy moment with friends and loved ones but still if i have to rate it to 10... still flunk in the rate of 5 if 70% is the passing.

The happiness i have now, is probably my coping to stay okay despite of the lacking things in life.

(sigh) when can i possibly feel great.. not just an exaggerating expression but real feeling deep inside..?

It's not that I'm not contented with what i have and with the little things around, but there's just this missing part in my heart that has kept me emotionally whisked  up.

But since i don't want to feel exactly how it is inside, i used to find ways, means and things to be motivated and to feel happy even a little.

 through  often SMILING  :)
THROUGH TALKING TO A FRIEND
HANGING OUT WITH PEERS
FINDING ENJOYMENT IN COOKING
THINK OF GOOD MEMORIES
PLAN YOUR LIFE AHEAD WITH BEAUTIFUL THINGS
SING AND DANCE YOUR EMOTIONS
LEARN TO WRITE YOUR THOUGHTS just like this
DON'T FORGET TO SPEAK OUT TO GOD HOW YOU FEEL