when boredom strikes me...

i dunno what to do...

i dunno what to say...

i just see myself beautiful..

so i made this for me....

The Single Woman’s Sassy Survival Guide: Letting Go & Moving On

Plant your own garden and decorate your own soul, instead of waiting for someone to bring you flowers.”~Unknown

Remember: Happiness starts with YOU. Not with your relationship, or your friends, or your job, or anything other than YOU. Not with what’s going on OUTSIDE…but with who you are INSIDE. You are NOT broken simply because your heart is…and your worth did NOT walk away simply because they did. Stop giving away your power and realize that YOU alone choose your energy and your attitude and your mindset every day. It's up to you. You can keep dwelling…or you can start prevailing. The time is NOW to let go and move on. Today is the first day of the rest of your life. Get out there and make it the first day of the BEST of your life.

Messages bringing out my best!

Whenever  i feel lonely, down trodden, confused, hesitant, pessimistic and hopeless, there messages and thoughts have been a big part of my positive sustenance and  keeping a grip.

my dear blog,

It's been passed 23 yrs ago...
and  i'm already  freakingly getting bored of being single.


I know this stage i'm into now, all the harsh realizations, emotions and hard feelings are just part of the challenge.


Getting through all these has never been easy. It's like eating your heart out with great stabbing and pricking pain... feels like bleeding. 


All the while I've been so much falling into a narrow thinking pit. I could barely understand and discern all the rational reasons of why things i wanted to happen still don't come.  I made a lot of questions... queries that couldn't somehow be answered by me or the people around...leading me to getting all the explanations from Him.. although the more it could hardly be answered. The more leaving me hanging and empty handed. 


I prayed harder, and harder and even more frequently just to be guided and to be enlightened from the darkest hours of my days. I repeatedly ask Him to give all the signs, (which i really never asked in the first place), the things i wanted to come into my life, the happiness i for so long have searched for, all the broken pieces of my life, the people i longed to see and complete my family. All these things, headache- causing things wander in every nerve on my brain.. Oh.. it's like I've always been  boiling my brain cells.


Now, another  realization have come up my ever wondering mind.


In the first place, i never have to be bothering and looming over the fact that i'm still single. It's not an ailment, rather a curse that couldn't  be ended. Looking over a positive perspective way, it's still an opportunity. A wise chance for me to prepare for the future, though being in a relationship doesn't mean we can no longer do preparations, but being in a single state, we can do and plan much for the future even for the future relationship. 


Maybe this explanation also gives answer to my long time query of why until this very moment of blogging, no one has ever been attached  to me romantically in a serious relationship. 


I'm not yet prepared for it!!!!!


Getting into something and wanting it to be just as good or even the best you wanted it to be... you should be prepared and all ready  to face the challenges without much distractions from other facets of life like the family, the money, the livelihood and all the matters that might badly affect the relationship.


Though trying is part of experiencing, learning and being prepared, still i believe that i still have to settle my concerns with the money and the family. So long after it, i could happily enjoy the company of someone special that would come into my life willing to share another  moments  of happiness, struggles, failures, successes, craziness and points of uncertainties in the future.




with much much <3, 
Marilyn